broken*saucer

if i started making dresses again. if i returned to some silly childhood dream of sewing up pretty things, following my love of the way fabric falls and moves on the body, would anyone want to see what happened? would anyone else think these fabrications were lovely? fun? worthy of wearing?

It's raining. giant penetrating drops, this rain wants to make me cold. but. it's friday and verging on a three day weekend. it's almost valentine's day, a day that never really mattered to me, but I guess I'm just feeling cheerful. When we got engaged, i, like so many brides, was convinced we had to have our wedding in the summer so that there would be sun and it could be a happy occasion. as if the sun itself determined how our wedding would go. I believe even G said, "it will be happy regardless of the weather." I think he even looked a little bit hurt at that. the farmers almanac predicted a 30% chance of rain on our weekend so G insisted that we needed an indoors. and rather than just a contingency plan, which is really just more stress. So we had our ceremony and reception indoors in a place without a deck. it was gloriously sunny, although sunset was an hour after the ceremony. but, did we really need a summer wedding? a more expensive bec...

This morning I went to the dentist, again. I didn't go for three years, partially because I was, gasp, uninsured, and then out of simple laziness. I have a lot of trouble making appointments when I'm not at the place that I need an appointment - like scheduling the next haircut at the current haircut, etc. Regardless, I like my dentist a lot. I've been seeing him semi-regularly for nine years and he always makes me laugh. This morning he brought up that show In Living Color. The man is a goofball but he knows his stuff. He was rated one of the best dentists in Seattle by Seattle magazine. I refer everyone to him because he's awesome (email me if you live in Seattle and need a good dentist). Anyway, when I finally returned to get a cleaning before the wedding, he discovered that I'd been more delinquent than I had realized. Getting old sucks when it comes to these things. Not only did I have periodontal disease, I had five cavities, including one requiring a crown. I...

Yesterday was our one month anniversary. which, given the eight years we were together before our engagement, one month doesn't seem like such a big deal. except, that we have been married for one month! I have actually had a few circumstances where I have called him my husband. And I get to look down at this pretty ring every day. This last month has not been monumental, but it has been a bit chaotic. after the wedding, I went back to work for a few days. we didn't leave for our honeymoon on Kauai'i until ten days after. then we were there, which was wonderful and filled with sun and surf and sand. and then we came home. and my first week back at work was interrupted by two dentist appointments, the arrival of our wedding photos and a costumed cyclo-cross bicycle race (I was Dorothy from the wizard of Oz - more on that later) and did I mention that it has been cold in our fair Seattle? We are officially back to the grind. Yes. Here we are. But we are married. And it feels ...

you noticed, maybe you didn't. I recently took the budget off of my blog. My first budget was $8k. ha. We mulled over the guest list, we decided we actually wanted some people to show up. We wanted a wedding INSIDE our city limits. okaaaaay. 10k. Do you want me to count the rings? How about the fact that I bought not one, but two wedding dresses. Do I add in both of those? What about my monthly facials, I started them before I got engaged, but if you think I'm not going to continue them right up until... and the skin care products. How 'bout my gym membership? And the fact that when we couldn't send our save-the-dates as postcards, I used half glassine envelopes that I had for 9 years, and half that G threw out the receipt for, because I was stressing about spending more money on them than I intended. the boy seems to believe that a lot of the little things, like stamps and envelopes early on don't really count because they are small expenditures that can be absorbe...

Letterpress for way more than I can or want to spend on something that only a few of my 100 guests will want to keep. I am a bit of a collector of many things paper. I do think "ooh that's so pretty," and keep cards that contain lovely sentiments from dear friends and sometimes even family, but I would like to say once and for all -- that even if your save-the-date cards are saved by your guests up until your invitations arrive and even if your invitations are saved until a couple of days after the wedding, eventually, and I'm not talking years, YOUR INVITATIONS ARE GOING IN THE RECYCLE BIN. Yes, even the ones that you painstakingly took hours to build yourself with multiple bits of paper and bows and glue and glitter and whatever else you put on them. Sure, your mom and and your grandma and your aunt Betty will keep them, but that's only three people from your 100+ person guest list. And especially the one that you paid $2000 to have letterpressed. Don't...